loads of shit. oh, i didn't stop blogging yet btw... :|

and then it hits you...  maybe she's not as happy as she makes out to be.  but she won't tell you.


maybe she's scared of rocking the boat.  or maybe she's scared that she won't be able to stop the tears.


and all she wants is someone to take care of her.  but she can't find a guy that will.


and maybe she wants you to understand but she can't find the willpower to ask you to see under the exterior.  and you carry on overlooking what's on the inside.


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she never talks about herself, always wanting other people to be in the spotlight so she can pretend that she's okay too.  i tell her that she doesn't have to pretend to me, she says she doesn't pretend she just hides it.  that she just doesn't mention it and i try and tell her that she can mention anything to me but she saves that for someone else instead.  she says that people say 'a problem shared is a problem halved.'  when it's not it's a problem shared is a problem doubled.  she can't see how it would get it off her chest than if she kept quiet.
she can't see how i want to help her, how i want to know what she's thinking, how she's doing, what's she's saying.
and i know she's known her longer, but is still want to be trusted the same.  i want her to tell me the same things as her and know she can talk to me about anything.  also, her friend is more 'keep quiet and listen' whereas i'm more 'i'm nikky and you better listen to me or you're screwed'.

i'm sorry. i love you all. (L)

i'm thinking of stopping blogging for awhile.  taking some time off and chilling out more.  i keep forgetting to post lately.  i might blog again soon.  if not, make a new blog.  hope you have a wonderful time<3

photographsssss(L)

well i'm going shopping today, so when i get home with the looovely things i'm sure i'll buy i'll take some photos and show you them<3


yesterday at the cinemas (watching valentines day; i recommend. :]) was good, not sure the boys enjoyed it as much as we did but ooh well. :P


how was all of your weekends/halfterm plans? :) xxxxxx

untouchable - taylor swift.

untouchable burning brighter than the sun; and when your close i feel like coming undone.

oh my god.

apparently daniel isn't allowed to go tomorrow and the weirdest thing is: he doesn't know why.  which is weird, cuz you'd think he would; right?


he's definitely not coming.  he just said.   my heart feels all empty now.  like he doesn't even want to go.  i might go and cry now.

♥

words mean more than actions.

so much death and destruction.  so much speaking without thinking.  so much arguing and fighting.  so much control and not need.


death is a strange thing, they say all good things must come to an end.  i guess that's true, because you die.  right?
destruction is a sad thing, it means that wonderful things are broken and abandoned.


speaking is our way of communicating, but we don't think how much it could hurt someone.
thinking is something we should all do more often.


arguing should stop; we can't all agree, but we can compromise, right?
fighting; violence should definitely stop.


control someone has to control everything; but does the power go to their heads?
need what we desire, what we crave, what fuels us.  keeps us going.

PEACE TO THE WORLD.